This Is Not Pain. This Is Relief.

Purple - Me
Blue - My friend

The shiny blade slips in my hand opening a shallow cut in my arm. The cut is ugly and crooked. Another imperfection. Just like me.
The bitterness brings a smile onto my face, the blood trickles down my arm. This is not pain. This is relief.
Pure, perfect relief.
You broke me, now I will finish it for you. You'll never see me again.
One last cut, and no-one will ever see me again.
Dark spots blur my vision. I welcome the sweet relief called death.

(Late) August Favorites!!

Hiya y'all!!!!!

Finally Winter is over here in Australia, and we can enjoy the sun rays!!

These are my August Favorites!

FAVORITE BOOK/STORY:

The Bad Boy Stole My Bra

FAVORITE SONGS:

Up All Night - Owl City

And The Snakes Start To Sing - Bring Me The Horizon

True Friends - Bring Me The Horizon

Carousel - Melanie Martinez

Mrs Potato Head - Melanie Martinez

FAVORITE DANCE:

Tied To You - The Next Step

FAVORITE FOOD:

Chocolate Fudge Biscuits

FAVORITE SHOW:

Little Lunch

FAVORITE MOVIE:

Pitch Perfect 2

So those were my August favorites. I am really sorry that they are late, it's just that I had a problem on the 30th and I'm still kinda recovering. Please forgive me!!!

Remember, if y'all would like to request something please comment it below, including if I can mention you, and I will get it done as soon as possible!!!!!

Love y'all!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Your Words Stain My Arms Like This Razor

Purple - Me
Blue - My friend

My eyes glaze over as I stare at my scarred wrist.
The pain it brings is not enough. I must cut more.
I dig the blade in...deeper...deeper until my blood spills. I smile. 1 cut. 2 cuts. 3 cuts. 4 cuts. One more and I can finally go. One more and I can finally die. His words stain my arms in pain. But soon I'll be gone, and it won't matter. Not to anyone. Not even to me.

Don't Let Anything Stop You...

Next time you think that you can't do something,
Let that thought float away into the wilderness of broken dreams and hopes.
You can do anything,
Don't let anything stop you,
Do what you want,
Don't say no,
Don't let anyone say no to you,
Untie your bonds,
Stretch out, release your feelings,
Let your hopes flourish,
Let your dreams free,
Look for the stars,
And don't let any one block out that view...

Would You Miss Me?

Orange = Me

Dark Purple = My friend

Hurt

Blood

Tear

Flesh

Forgotten

Pain

Painful

Loneliness

Please

Blade

Breath

Bitterness

Help

Hate

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe out

Pain. Blood. Bitter. Death.

Orange = Me
Dark Purple = My friend

WARNING: CAN BE DESCRIPTIVE

The blade. The blood. The bitterness. The nausea. The death.

A broken soul cries.

The blood trickles down my arm as black spots appear in my vision.

With the sound of drip-drip-drip life seeps away.

The bath is no longer clean; water mixed with blood stains the once pristine white tiles.

A last tear falls, trickling down a still warm cheek.

The words 'fat', 'ugly' and 'useless' leave scars in my brain and arms.

Cold, hard blade. I push it in further. Goodbye world.

Happiness is what I feel when I leave, not pain.

Birthday Haul!!!!!❤❤

Hiya y'all!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right, today I finally turned 14 years old!!!!!

Here is my birthday haul!!!!!

I got quite a lot of presents, so this might take some time.

From +Jazzy P(mainly), +Amy Ho and +Aishabella Sheikh. 

I got One Direction badges and a One Direction necklace.

I also got 2 packets of loom bands, so I'm gonna be quite busy theses next few weeks! ;-)

One of the last things I got from those beautiful people is this necklace, along with a red skipping rope and a pretty pink card!!! 

From my family friend, I got this tuspaah.

This unique bag.

This praying mat, 

And these beautiful necklaces!

 Last, but definitely not least, from my friends (who I will not name *insert evil laugh here*) They made three signs for me, but I didn't take a closer picture of the third one because someone drew an inappropriate picture on it.

And from another friend, I got the third book in the Geek Girl series!

Those were all my birthday presents!!!!! Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday and gave me presents!!!!!

Remember, if y'all would like to request something, please comment it below, including if I can mention you, and I will do my best to get it done!!!!!

Love y'all!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

July Favorites!!!!!

Hiya y'all!!!!!

July is finally finished, meaning one month left until Spring!!!

Here are my July Favorites!

FAVORITE BOOK/STORY:

The Wereling - Wounded

FAVORITE SONGS:

She's Kinda Hot - 5 Seconds Of Summer 

Where Do Broken Hearts Go? - One Direction

Never Givin' Up - B-Mike

Girls - The 1975

The City - The 1975

FAVORITE DANCE:

Malang from Dhoom 3

FAVORITE FOOD:

Kale and Quinoa

FAVORITE SHOW:

House Of Anubis

FAVORITE MOVIE:

Paper Towns

FAVORITE ACTRESS:

Cara Delevigne

FAVORITE ACTOR:

Nat Wolff

Those are my July Favorites!!!!!

Remember, if y'all would like to request something, please comment it below, including if I can mention you, and I will do my best to get it done!!!!!

Love y'all!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

My Sad Love Story

WARNING! CAN BE DESCRIPTIVE!!!


I love you.

That's what you said to me. A long time ago. Yesterday. Yesterday when I was happy. Yesterday when you were in my heart. Before you left. Ripped yourself free. Left me. Left 'us'. Forever. Gone. Not coming back.

I hate you.

That's what you told me today. Get away from me. I hate you.

Now I'm alone.

You left me to myself. But you don't understand. I can't be without you. I don't think you know.
I don't think you know that you broke me. If you did, you would come back and finish me off. Instead, you left the broken remnants of me to suffer with.

Cold. Alone.

But I'll finish the job for you tonight. I smile at my reflection in the shiny, cold blade.

I dragged the blade across my arm. Slowly. Savouring the red hot pain it brings.

A dark spot flashes before my eyes. Then another. I push the blade in further, deeper, deeper.

I scream.

Not out of the pain. Not out of the dull horror at what I'm doing. But at the joy it brings. The way out. I laugh, knowing I can finally be free.

(Late) June Favorites

Hiya y'all!!!!!

Um, I just realized that it is July........sowwy(?)

Here are my June Favorites:

FAVORITE BOOK/STORY:

The Moment Collector

FAVORITE SONGS (TOP 5):

Dear Dad - B-Mike

Girl Almighty - One Direction

18 - One Direction

Lie a Little Better - Lucy Hale

2 Faces - B-Mike ft Maribelle

FAVORITE DANCE:

Where Are You Now - Justin Bieber

FAVORITE FOOD:

Chocolate Chip Cookies

FAVORITE SHOW:

Pretty Little Liars

FAVORITE MOVIE:

Big Hero 6

FAVORITE ACTRESS:

Lucy Hale

FAVORITE ACTOR:

Keegan Allen

Those were my June favorites!!!!!

I really am sorry it's late, but it's the school holidays, and I don't even know what day it is.

If y'all would like to request something, please comment it below, including if I can mention your name, and I will do my best to get it done!!!!!


Love y'all!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤